Well last night my husband surprised me with an invitation out to dinner to celebrate a very important certification test he passed. I have to admit I wasn't terribly gracious when I responded. All I could think of was but I hadn't planned on this! I have been trying very hard to be careful with my calories and my exercise. Going out to dinner was going to throw all of that out the window! It would mean my day's calorie counts would be blown and I wouldn't be able to go to the gym and work out - which amazingly enough I am starting to enjoy!
But keeping all my healthy eating info in mind and embracing the spontaneity of the occasion I quickly had a change of heart. I grabbed a large drink bottle and drank down a pint of water to fill me up a bit so I wouldn't overindulge. Then just as we were about to go out the door, I received some very upsetting news. News that had me livid, so upset I wanted to physically destroy things. Not a common feeling by any means but definitely enough to have me reeling and reaching out for food. But get this.....I didn't! I didn't self soothe with food, I didn't comfort eat and I didn't over indulge!
We went to the restaurant, I made excellent food choices - and not just for the sake of my "diet" but because I actually wanted a Greek Salad with Chicken hold the dressing and the croutons. Hubby and I shared a dessert as part of the celebration but really, I could have done without it. We talked. And talked and talked. It was great! We discussed the upsetting news and what we were going to do about it. We even went for a walk after dinner!
I feel so many things as I write this. Normally I would have felt angry, bitter, guilty for overindulging, disgusted with myself for blowing my "diet" again. Instead, I feel strong, powerful, in control and so, so proud of myself!
I can certainly get used to this feeling!
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